I have a doctors appointment tomorrow. I have them every month as my doctor also helps to keep track of my mental stability. She knows that I've been battling SI amongst other mental health issues that are rapidly deteriorating. Since last month's visit, my SI has spread to my wrist. And I'm unsure if I should show her or not. But one thing I need to make clear. I used to SI just for the rush... Now it's the only thing that's keeping me from SUI. And the effect is starting to wear off. My friends think I shouldn't be in my own home anymore. And my boyfriend wants me to go in patient because according to him, I'm not coping. I'm barely hanging on.