I lost my Mama Saturday morning. She is now with my Dad in heaven. My life with just never be the same. Our relationship was a difficult one at times. She no doubt is the reason I am so messed up mentally. In the end tho, it didn't matter. She is my mom and I miss her so much it hurts. The emotions are out of control. My sister, an addict, is reaking havoc for everyone. Nothing about it has been peaceful and it is hard to get closure right now. I have 3 daughters who are hurting too. I have to be strong for them. I just don't even have the desire to get out of bed.