To all the posters who felt this was a positive experience and gave you some insight and gratitude, I am very happy for you.
Hydrophobic1212, you might want to wait to read mothers journal. This may bring up things and feelings that need not be addressed today. You are in a positive place now.
The fact your mom was willing to share it with you just shows how much she loves you.

To others reading your file can be triggersome. ( new word ) !
For people 30 and over and have read their file was/is hard because of misdiagnosis and treatments, will read things that that contradict the reality of the past and how patients were treated then. Start where you are today.

I have read things that the doctor recommended but insurance never released or approved.
I didn't like the tone of the insurance dr . Example patient denies she drinks alcohol rather than saying patient says she doesn't drink.
After a head/neck injury mri found more bilateral embolisms on the left which were older than the subdermal hematoma they were authorized to treat, I only recently got this information.

So If you want you should seek out all physical files but mental notes from a doctor be forewarned you might not like what you read and if you do take it with a grain of salt.
It is an opinion.

Happiedasiy