Hey! I'm a very new member of this site and you are not the only person that is embarrassed of speaking about your OCD. I have had it since I was young and its so bad that I've actually been made fun of for it. People don't understand that OCD is a real mental illness. I understand how embarrassing it must be to admit to someone your problems but all you need to do is find you someone you love and trust and tell them what's going on. I've been holding in emotions since I can remember and its only made my OCD that much worse. I have never actually been diagnosed but its pretty evident that I have OCD combined with extreme anxiety. It might be tough at first, but talking to someone about it and getting help will pay off in the end.