Hi,
I'm new here. I have dual-diagnosis and have had another psychotic break. I'm at my wits end and am tired of being released after just one week of inpatient care.

I have struggled with this for far too many years and have hurt the people I love so much, it kills me to no end.

Now, I don't have insurance and frankly, I'm at a point to where I want to do something to give back to society. I want to volunteer myself for research. I want to give back I guess is what I am trying to say.

I know my family does not truly understand me and why I am the way that I am. They were blessed by being born normal. Me, I was cursed with this and I'm exhausted. I don't know what else to do anymore, than to volunteer for research. Perhaps, they can learn things from me and maybe my loved ones can finally be proud.

I don't want to be this huge waste of life. I honestly want to do something that might help future generations.

I have recently had another psychotic break and I am terrified. I'm so tired of all of this. I'm exhausted.

I'm isolating now because I don't know what else to do to protect my loved ones from.... well, ME!

Isolating is not an answer, I know that, and I am searching for solutions that might be beneficial for not only me, but for research as well.

I had one promising lead, but she has not called me back for a second contact phone conversation. I am a little discouraged because I am very serious about this.

Does anyone know where I can turn for this search? I truly want this.

Thank you