As an off-shoot question, when you have lied, do you apologize? There are things that I flat out lied about and the truth is out now. I feel the need to apologize for being dishonest but I don't know if that is really just to make myself feel better about it (which is not the point of apologies, IMO).

I have apologized. In September I had an issue with sleep meds. I took to many but immediately regretted it. Hubby called T and I insisted to both of them I did it because I was really tired and just wanted sleep and that it was in no way an attempt to hurt myself. All three of us talked to the ER Dr (T talked to him on the phone) and everybody agreed it was an attempt to get sleep which was partially true. Last week I told her the complete truth which I was in so much pain then and knew I needed help but didn't know how to ask or what to ask for. This was my cry for help but then I chickened out and gave them the story of sleep. I have felt guilty about it. I have apologized to her because she was so helpful those couple of days......