your life will finally be your own once you are free of him. I cant promise it will get easier. it could get messy. you have to coparent with him and who knows what that will entail. it is going to take a lot of strength and not having the support of your family is going to be difficult when you are in an emotionally fragile state. whatever you do, don't turn to this other guy for support. you could be heading for antoehr disaster. you need to find the strength within yourself. give yourself time to be alone. find your independence. only then will you be healthy enough for a relationship. take care.