well i went to my friends house. i think i was followed home. by the spies. i saw a speeding car get pulled over and i thought he was pulling me over. i even pulled to the side of the road and he didnt even have his lights on yet. i must have looked dumb. but i thought they were coming for me. i thought abou just running away but then he sped up and pulled the car in front of me. the spies are implanting thought into my head to hurt myself and kill ymself. its like voices in my head. i just texted T and said that and he said to take more seroquel and to take my night meds and go to bed. but i dont feel tired yet. i dont know what to do really

T just said its not possible for them to make me kill myeslf. he says i will get my shot tomorrow and it will stop. but why would they stop when i get my shot. i think they are following me and making sure i do what they say. but i dont want to hurt myself. im confused