Hello I am 21 year old Female,
I have a problem with seeing and hearing things that aren't there
Sometimes I see people,or cartoons.... Or shades of light that are there then
Gone in a blink of an eye..this has been happening for as lng as I can remember
But only recently has it gotten worse. Sometimes I will hear my name being called or I will hear the tv being on or two or more people having a conversation...Even when No one is home and I am alone and every electrical appliance has been turned off. Sometimes I feel that life is a dream and I am in a coma and none of this is real
And sometimes I laugh or cry or do some random impulsive thing for no reason
Like kick the wall or the table/desk or break something then I play it off like it didn't happen.. These things happen when I am under no stress at all but when I am under stress they do get worse. they are always present even on my best of days. Also I get tired more than usual and sleep for longer periods of time than I should. I have weird and disturbing thoughts of things That I have to constantly fight back from my mind,Thoughts that I know aren't mine,I would never think these things but yet they pop into my head. I took the sanity score test on here and it told me i scored 70 points for schizophrenia.then I took the screening test for schizophrenia and scored an 75 then I took it again but answered more truthfully about things and got a 78.I looked schizophrenia up and many things I experience are very similar,it kind of freaks me out,I am too shy to seek professional help I just can't talk to someone face to face about my problems what if someone laughs at me or people see me going to a doctor and try to use the new found info that I have something wrong with me against me? And I cant talk to my parents either they just laugh it off as just stress they are in complete denial they can't accept something is wrong with me So if I get help I will have to seek it myself but I am afraid of it! I am afraid of people knowing my problems I don't want to be dubbed crazy and slapped on some medicine that I probably don't need. any advice on how to overcome this fear of seeking help would be much appreciated. I don't feel comfortable with giving out my email adress so I would prefer to talk about it here.