Welcome to PC Comeclarity! and you are already on your way to feeling better just by taking the risk and talking on here. As people have mentioned before, is there anyone at your College that you could talk to? I'm also a first year at university, and can realy relate to what you're saying. I'm also not close with my parents, and i completely understand what you mean about the hugging and "i love you thing." - that will take some time! But just know that if you are willing to work on it (which is sounds like you are) then you can do whatever you set your mind to. I think all anyone in the world wants is to feel accepted and loved, and i think that if you can come to a better understanding of how your feeling - whether it be through therapy or not - you will be just fine.

Keep posing, and feel free to PM if you want to talk.
Jacqueline