Neither do I... I hope and pray. Like the poster after me said, you have to weigh the possible outcomes and decide if potentially winding up in foster care wouldn't be worse.

That being said, if you call the hotline anonymously and not on a cell phone so there's no record of the call, you can still talk to someone without identifying yourself or filing a complaint. It's more immediate and interactive than here online, and the people you talk to would be trained in issues such as these.

But if you call be real clear with them that you do / do not wish to file a complaint and don't let them talk you into something you don't want to do. I'm not saying they will try, I'm just saying you're being pushed around as it is... so make your own choices not somebody else's.

It's rough - I really know where you're coming from. I also know there's nothing worse than being told some of the things you've been told by the people you love and trust and who are supposed to be taking care of you not dragging you down

You aren't the only person ever to have been told such things by a parent... really KNOW that!

Don't believe it... don't internalize their **** / make those words a part of how you see yourself no matter how many times or how nasty they get in repeating them. It's not as easy as it sounds when it's over and over and over again - you do it unconsciously - boy do I know it! But you can't live it as though it were true or it'll just make life suck for a long long time.

Been there ... trust me... don't believe it no matter how many times you hear it.

Illegitimum non carborundum - "Don't let the bastards get you down!"

This too shall pass, and if it doesn't well then now you know you have options!

PS. As much as I like the "letter to Mom and Dad" the 2nd poster after me put up, it's probably as nuclear if not more so an option than actually reporting your folks to CPS (at least in my opinion). If I'd have sent it to my parents they would NOT have taken a minute to stop and think, "God, what're we doing to our kids?" My folks would have rocket shipped me to the Moon or Mars, forget foster care!

Maybe if you edited out, or changed these lines:

"At the end my rope, I have started considering options, because, to be honest with you, even living in a foster home seems not so bad when compared to the kind of existence I have been leading in our house.

I am not there yet, but I am considering applying for assistance from Child Protective Services. I know how to do that, but, as I said, am not there yet."

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My parents would have read those; handed me a phone; then dialed the number!

For my money, those lines are words you don't say unless you are ready to pick up the cell phone and hit speed dial. Not when the people you are saying them to are acting irrationally to begin with. You might wind up triggering even more irrational behavior if you say things like that.

I know what the poster was trying for though, and with that I agree. Trying to get across to your folks, who aren't acting rationally from what you've described, just how seriously this is affecting you and your sister.

Talk about "walking on eggshells!" Now you've got me all wondering just how on Earth, if I were you, I'd phrase that communication! I see what you mean / sympathize all the more. It's like just wtf do you say to get your point across that will actually get through to people who clearly are missing the plot!

Good luck. Don't internalize. Stay strong!