I completely understand how you feel. In fact, a few months ago I even remember thinking to myself that if I ever relapsed I would "ride it out" and just keep going since, you know, I started anyways.

I did end up relapsing last month, but then I realized that relapse just turned into a reminder of how bad SI actually is. It's hard, but it really helps if you can even just *try* to change your mindset. Don't think of the relapse as an excuse to keep going, but as a reminder of how much guilt and shame SI brings, and why you stopped in the first place.

- AJ