yesterday my shrink asked to see my cuts. I had to show her some on my upper thigh......

i got the feeling that either she didnt believe that I cut that much or almost as if (after she saw it) 'it isn't that big of a deal'......

now i feel like i HAVE to cut and cut "better".......... I feel like this "inside me" (OCD) and I have no choice but to do this.