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Originally Posted by FourEyesAK
So, my job has soured (you can see my previous post in this forum) and my boss and are are not working well together. I've made the decision to put in my notice tomorrow and I am completely terrified over how this may be received by my boss. I've been highly anxious all weekend over it, running the past couple of months over and over again in my head.
I don't want to leave on a bad note, but I want to acknowledge that we are not a good fit as a team. Maybe my boss will be relieved because she sees me as a problem employee - I don't really care - I just want to wrap up my work in the next couple of weeks as best I can and leave without having a bad review on my record and still being eligible for rehire should I decide to return to the company.
I've talked my mother's ear off about my anxieties, my poor husband has had his fill. I *know* all this anxiety is unproductive and unhealthy, but I can't seem to turn it off. So, I'm here trying to alleviate some of my anxieties here.
On top of it all, I feel like a failure. I'm 35 years old and was unable to make this job situation work. I feel like I should have been able to find a solution, but every time I thought we were just beginning to work well together, my boss would fly off the handle at me. All I have now is rock bottom self-esteem and a fragile mental state that has me crying at the least bit of disapproval or criticism.
I don't know. I'm so unsure of myself. Am I doing the right thing? My mother assures me that I am, but she's not exactly an impartial observer. I have a coworker who is afraid that I will have a mental breakdown if I don't find another job. And this boss has a history of chewing up and spitting out employees which a number of sources have told me. I've just never had a contentious relationship with a boss before and I just dearly hope we can part ways professionally.
Anyways, I could talk myself in circles all night long and it's not going to make tomorrow or the next couple of weeks any easier, so thanks for taking the time read my post. I welcome any insight or comments 
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Sorry to hear that you have such a horrible boss...mental issues are real and can really deplete our energies, ambitions and skills. I suffer from depresssion and anxiety and don't know what brings it on but it does feel lousy. You are not alone and maybe reach out to other people who experience what you do. Good luck.