More thoughts that I have to get out of my head. I think I'm in a mixed state. I've got tons of energy but I feel like I'm going to cry at any minute. I keep thinking I don't want this to be what's wrong with me. Nothing is wrong with me. I can't make my thoughts stop. They aren't sui yet, but I fear they could turn easily. I hate this uncontrollable mood episodes that happen. It isn't fair. There's too much in my head. I want to get out of my head and get an escape. I'm worried the zyprexa is going to make me fat. Who knows though.I can't sit still. I want to run and cry but I can't its work for another few hours then therapy after work which sucks. We've been stuck on a plateau. I need to be blunt and honest. And not get distracted by the little things. Ahhhhhhhh...... sorry had to get it out.
Tig