Hi,

Does anyone else have a person in their life who is a really bad trigger? My Mom's comments make me so freaking mad Today she calls about us having a house ready to sell because my Dad's paying the mortgage. I told her my husband and I would love to have it on the market yesterday, but he has to work jobs that pay for a while so we can pay our bills. Then, I told her part of the reason I was in the psych ward a week ago was finanical stress. This just goes in one ear and out the other because she keeps harping on how much $ they are having to pay each month (I have no idea where the "we" comes from bc my Mom never worked). She also tells me I need to get a PT job as soon as my meds are fixed. She says a PT job will get me out of the house. Even though she knows I regulary go to AA mtgs, walk 5 miles every weekday and jobs including volunteering have made me manic. And the reason I own the house we need to sell in the first damn place is bc I bought it when I was manic!?

Then she lectures me on why my blood pressure in so high, which was an issue in the psych ward. She tells me to walk every day - yeah that's a good idea maybe I'll have a stroke because as she knowsI still am not on meds that work. Then, I need to go on the Dash diet because high blood pressure is about diet. We ate dinner with her a few days ago, and she started lecturing me on salt after she didn't listen to me telling her the hospital said my sodium levels are normal. She is constantly telling me that I never used to be overweight after I explain some of the 7 different meds I'm on cause weight gain. She also seems to have forgotten my past issues with anorexia.

I swear 90% of the reason I'm in therapy is my Mother. She is an adult child of 2 alcoholic parents, and had to make the decision to take her child off of life support. She is desperatly in need of therapy and/or meds, but noooo my parents do not have any "mental" illnesses. I can't even tell them I was in the hospital for PTSD. My Dad, a retired Army Col., doesn't believe in ptsd. He also doesn't believe I have issues because who could remember what happpened at a young age.
I also will never inform them that at the hospital they increased
my diagnosis to Bipolar 1, major deperessive disorder, ptsd, add, addiction, and possible borderline personality. I will also never tell them I was inpatient for suicidal ideation. They don't know about any of my suicide attemps. When I told my Mom at age 12 about my sexual abuse by their friends son, she said you should of told us earlier bc your Dad is a higher rank and could of had his Dad fired???!!! Did I get any therapy? No way!

I just can't seem to get thru to her, and I'm going to be spending less time with her for my own sanity (we live in the same town). It's no wonder why I'm a drug/alcohol addict. This level of dsyfunction would drive anyone to search for an escape.

Thanks for letting me vent; I have to get this **** out so I don't resort to drug abuse after I picked up my one year chip.

tnt