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Originally Posted by BonnieS
Hello I am 21 year old Female,
I have a problem with seeing and hearing things that aren't there
Sometimes I see people,or cartoons.... Or shades of light that are there then
Gone in a blink of an eye..this has been happening for as lng as I can remember
But only recently has it gotten worse. Sometimes I will hear my name being called or I will hear the tv being on or two or more people having a conversation...Even when No one is home and I am alone and every electrical appliance has been turned off. Sometimes I feel that life is a dream and I am in a coma and none of this is real
And sometimes I laugh or cry or do some random impulsive thing for no reason
Like kick the wall or the table/desk or break something then I play it off like it didn't happen.. These things happen when I am under no stress at all but when I am under stress they do get worse. they are always present even on my best of days. Also I get tired more than usual and sleep for longer periods of time than I should. I have weird and disturbing thoughts of things That I have to constantly fight back from my mind,Thoughts that I know aren't mine,I would never think these things but yet they pop into my head. I took the sanity score test on here and it told me i scored 70 points for schizophrenia.then I took the screening test for schizophrenia and scored an 75 then I took it again but answered more truthfully about things and got a 78.I looked schizophrenia up and many things I experience are very similar,it kind of freaks me out,I am too shy to seek professional help I just can't talk to someone face to face about my problems what if someone laughs at me or people see me going to a doctor and try to use the new found info that I have something wrong with me against me? And I cant talk to my parents either they just laugh it off as just stress they are in complete denial they can't accept something is wrong with me So if I get help I will have to seek it myself but I am afraid of it! I am afraid of people knowing my problems I don't want to be dubbed crazy and slapped on some medicine that I probably don't need. any advice on how to overcome this fear of seeking help would be much appreciated. I don't feel comfortable with giving out my email adress so I would prefer to talk about it here.
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Secondly, you are the perfect age for schizophrenic symptoms to begin manifesting themselves. It's not that you're "crazy" or someone is going to go all
American Horror Story: Asylum on you, but I think it's already beginning to worry and interrupt your life.
If you go to the doctor, I assure you that they won't laugh or call you crazy. Doctors don't laugh at people that have cancer symptoms or erectile dysfunction (okay, maybe they laugh later about the ED) and this is no different. They want to see you get your quality of life back. They will probably refer you to a psychiatrist and maybe a therapist who specialize in helping people with mental illness and they will likely help you talk through what's going on an maybe suggest some medications to help you as well.
There's no reason to be ashamed or nervous. Heck, they probably won't even take blood samples.