No one, even those at school would be happy if you killed yourself. The pain such an act causes is much farther reaching than you would suspect. Leaving people feeling pain and guilt because they didn't notice. I'm sure your parents would be devastated. It is not any parent ever wants to have happen.

I, too, have contenplated suicide, too many times to count. Twice left me in the psych ward. I have a friend attempted it until she finaly ruined kidneys and will be on dyalisis the rest of her life and dammaged the nerves in her leg an feet leaving her in a wheel chair.

All this I hope shows you suicide is not always successful. I believe everyone has a time to die and it will happen at God's time not ours. I hope you seek help. Depression can be helped.