Well, some of this list is circumstantial, some of it is in my control. My happiness has to be in full control though, regardless of what happens. A lot of it is left up to fate, but my attitude comes first, I suppose that's half the battle.

And believe me, #1 still hurts- a lot! Am I guilty of ruminating endlessly about it? Yes, quite. Do I think my life would have been more amazing if she stayed it? Possibly- though things aren't always as they appear to be.

I think the hardest part of the struggle was that I thought I had to be in a settled place in life before I got over her. That I needed a great job/better girlfriend, before I can get over her. Or worse yet, that I needed to do everything in my power to win her back. But I think I have to get over her first- and the most important step to realizing that is knowing I can be happy no matter what.

But hey, progress is progress, and any amount of it is good. And I like to think this list will help.