Besides hugs, I would like to say something....

I am under the impression that passive suicide is a term meaning that you think about dying a lot....from causes other than yourself. "Wishing" death would 'happen' to you.

From this post, you seem to be apathetic, even toward death.

When I was at the bottom, I longed for an unconscious state. A respite from the pain (very real pain), the exhaustion and the INCESSANT ABSENCE OF "WANT".

Depression had taken away my 'want' and left me with apathy. Which is worse, even, than any negative emotions.....At least then I would feel...

But apathy leaves you without even the desire to seek help.
Someone on the outside has to seek it for you. I know that you have asked someone on the outside to do that and they seem to have failed you. But don't stop asking. Ever.