I totally get that. I have performance anxiety. My H is nice, and he wants me to get mine, but it is more important to him then it is to me. I know if It doesn't happen for me then he takes it personal. So I have performance anxiety.

I have told my H and the T eventually confirmed it for my H, that it is not necessarily the Orgasm its self it is just as much as the trip there. He still doesn't seem to understand how this can be true. I guess he wants me to feel the power that he feels. I feel bad for him for wanting me to enjoy it so much. You can;t make someone else enjoy something.