He is an abuser. he will never understand these things. You will never get better until you are out of that situation. continuing to live there is what is making your ptsd worse. you need to get into treatment so you can find the strength to get yourself into a better place. welcome to psych central. you will find that we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome