Dear T,
I still don't feel better. Two sessions in one week and I'm feeling worse. I wish I would just cry. I have so much to say. I don't know what I want or need. Talking today wasn't really helpful. I feel horrible. I wish I could sit in your office and just cry. If I don't get it together by Tuesday, I may plan to sit and simply cry. But, I know by then, I'll cover up and pretend to be ok. Another part of me wants to cancel therapy for Tuesday until I get my life together. I just want to be able to sit and cry and for someone to tell me it's ok to cry, I'm safe, and that they won't judge me. I want to be able to just sit in my tears.