I am so angry at your old T for responding like that. I really don't think your new T will treat you the same way. It really sounds like she is invested in you and is willing to give you the time and space to open up when you're ready. And it definitely sounds like she is willing to accept you when that time comes. But I know that me just saying it won't make you believe it. So I will tell you a variation of what my T has told me a million times: take your time and learn to trust when you are ready. You're not being deceitful, you're just only able to tell some of the truth right now. You don't have the ability to tell the whole truth yet. That will come when you're ready.