I just actually added up and made a graph of the number of emails exchanged between myself and T in the last 15 months, in hopes it would show they were decreasing, in a rather pathetic attempt at giving myself hope that I won't actually be in therapy forever.

While the trend was not increasing, the strength of the decreasing trend was not particularly convincing

I've nominally been trying to go every other week instead of every week since this January, but I wound up getting into a huge rupture with T which resulted in a 30-minute phone conversation and a session that went 45 minutes over, effectively nullifying my efforts to cut back.

Somebody kill me now