thanks I am worried about being on medication but I have decided with some help
that I will if I have to be. I see people my hallucinations are so strong I can't always be sure
If I am seeing someone for real or it was a hallucination I saw this girl in a parking lot
and it turned out to be a hallucination I even talked to her it make me feel stupid and crazy
and I know the other people I was with thought the same.. I played it off but damn
(excuse the language)I just don't know for sure I don't even know what I am doing sometimes,
Sometimes I can sit there not saying,doing,or even thinking of anything for a long period of time
before gaining back my thoughts..It's difficult and it makes me nervous.
I know I gotta see someone It makes me feel better to talk I always kept it inside but it has to get out.
I was worried to tell anyone I didn't want to I was too nervous to encounter anyone
face to face on my problems but if I don't then I am letting my problems win me over and I CAN'T let that happen.
I keep thinking this is all a dream but if I can get some help maybe I can convince myself otherwise
The primary reason for me joining this site is so I could talk to others going through What I am going though
and get this load of pent up frustration off my shoulders.