I was hospitalized several (by several I mean 13) times between 14 and 19. Then I recovered from my trauma and stayed out of the hospital for six years. THEN bipolar came back to kick my *** again and I ended up horribly mixed and freaking out, fearing I was unable to stop myself from crashing my car into a pillar on the highway. I was terrified to go to the hospital because it would be SO HUMILIATING. How could I admit to everyone that I was still crazy? It was horrible.

In the end, my doctor forced me to go. I cried hysterically when telling my mom because I thought she would be so disappointed...but she was super supportive. Even my mother in law who is horrid was supportive, at least to my face

Bottom line....embarrassment will not kill you, but this condition could. Embarrassment isn't worth your life. If you really think you need the help then please just screw anyone else and get it. It's your life and you have to live it.

Be safe :-)