Thank you for the clear explanation, alexandra. What you wrote makes me think that maybe I have internalized my T. I dream about him a lot and think about him. I can picture him and hear his voice in my head. Sometimes when I am faced with dilemmas, I think "what would T do?" and it helps me surmount the obstacle. I don't think I would describe it as "soothing" but I am definitely able to feel his presence when he is not physically with me, and I have an internal certainty that he still exists when we are not in session. Does it sound like I have internalized him?