Today was a pretty good day. I got Rx pads with my name on them for the first time. Previously I was borrowing from the team doctors, and writing my name and NP credentials onto the scripts. I've been at this job since May, and today the medical director came into my office with a box, and said "I've got a present for you," and he gave me that Rx pads. This was double good, because I told him about my bipolar a couple weeks ago, and he still had the pads made. I graduated in 2011, but I was really sick for the last couple semesters of my training, cycling and highly anxious. Shortly after grad, i had to go on a 6 month medical leave because of bipolar. Then I bounced around jobs, working casual and taking ****** contracts for a year, and it seemed like all my studies were for nothing, and it seemed like I would never work as an NP - until I finally found this job in May. Today felt like I'm a permanent person on the team. One of the pdocs was jokingly asking me for an Rx for seroquel. Kind of strange that someone would joke about that with me, when seroquel is one of my meds, but he doesn't know that. That joke might have bothered sometimes, but today I didn't let it get to me. It's beeg an uphill battle to get my career back on track, but it finally feels like things are coming together.