I have had a terrible few weeks and an even worse day.

I have a lot going on and am stressed out. It's Friday and so I am also exhausted.

First, I said something at work that I guess was rude or inconsiderate or something (I am terrible about knowing whether something is appropriate...yay abuse which never showed me what you should and should not say to someone). My coworkers then teased me about it all day. It was embarrassing and made me feel terrible.

Then I made a joke to a good friend of mine that would be considered rude if you weren't good friends. Well, a mutual "friend" then said to me "Can't you ever say anything nice?" in response to this joke and wouldn't listen to my attempts to explain that it was a joke.

Then I was criticized by someone who has no place criticizing me, and she did it in such a mean and passive-aggressive way that it left me feeling worthless and beat down.

Then when I tried to text my T, she hasn't responded. And not only that, she hasn't responded to any of my texts in the past two weeks. It hasn't been a big deal because they have been lighthearted or had good news, until today when I need her, and now I feel abandoned by her as well.

So basically, I feel like I run everyone off and everyone hates me, and I want to just curl up in a corner and die so that I don't subject other humans to my presence anymore.