You sound like a nun that thinks living a holy life is all about self denial.
Therapy is the place to expose our desires & needs.
15months is nothing in the therapy journey.
About that time, my repressed needs were just waking.
I emailed all the time. Just about managing to not fall apart with the feelings that accompanied them.
I told T I felt like a toddler needing to follow her from room to room.
T said "that's exactly where those feelings are coming from and I'm testing she is strong enough to withstand those out pouring of feeling as my adoptive mother wasn't"