Well, tomorrow is my much anticipated/dreaded appointment with T, first one since our session where I dropped all the stuff I had been withholding from him. I'm still feeling bad, but have tried not to obsess about it. I've just not dealt with the feelings but now they are starting to creep up on me as tomorrow approaches. I still plan to just tell him from the heart just how very sorry I am. I'm scared to know how he will react. Will he accept my apology? Will he not? Will we ever be the same again? Is our amazing relationship over and now we will just be workmanlike and distant? When these things happen in real life, I tend to walk away. I am not walking away from T. <font color="#AAAAAA">unless he pushes me....</font> I'm kind of scared. Aaaackkk, therapy!