....and I don't know if I like it.

I email my T 2-3 times a week and he always responds. I love being able to unload what's in my heart and I especially love that he emails me back. It makes me feel more connected and safe.

But lately I worry I'm too attached. I count the days until sessions, I often re-read emails when I'm down, he's the most important man in my life, etc.

So I decided to try not to email at all between session this time, which is a painfully long 10 days. It's hard but I want to prove to myself that I can do it. More than likely he's going to bring up the lack of emails (highly unusual for me) and I fear I won't have the courage to give him the real reason (I'm obsessed with you and I feel like that's a character flaw.) I also want to gear up for termination (which I sense is still a ways away) but I want to decrease my dependence on him somehow.