Hello,

About 3 years ago I started to feel differently about myself in a negative way. I hated who I was. I later realized that I had become depressed. I was diagnosed by a doctor for having reactive depression. I had a rough year with my dad being sick, school and being in a verbally abusive relationship. When I had depression I felt like I loss my identity and I was no longer the woman I thought I was.

I went for help and was put on anti-depressants. I deleted the abusive man from my FB and my phone...and I made peace with the way that he treated me. I was on meds for a year and a half and I was taken off them in Dec 2013. I felt like I had beat depression...and I started to remember who I was again.

What I didn't realize was that depression could be beaten but that I was still scared of snapping back into that state of mind. I found a man I really liked...he knew about my depression and my past with the abusive man. He didn't care. I then became a little too vulnerable and since he has his own issues to deal with he told me he needed to back off because he wasn't ready for a serious relationship. I wasn't so much hurt by the rejection, but hurt that he made me sound like I could break again. I realized he was right and I wasn't ready for a serious relationship either.

Now I am wondering how to rediscover who I am. How do others fully recover from depression? Are others scared of snapping back into depression after they beat it?