Hi,

I really need some support or hugs or anything..

I recently lost my little sister in a truamatic way and I am really struggling.. I was to be with her so much, I keep making plans to kill myself to be with her.. Plus my OCD is making my mind think that I am to be blame for Jades death cos I keep thinking cos I didn't complete a ritual one day and then I started getting images and thoughts in my head saying someone in my life was gonna die and a few weeks later my sister died..

I want to harm myself so badly, I want to get the anger, guilt and the flashbacks to stop and I just feel like I cannot cope for much longer.. I just wanna be with her, I am not strong at all..

Claire..