Thank you for posting this. I struggle with this often.... expectations and hope versus reality. Every time I build up hope of having a happy future... fear pops up and over rides.

I worry about these things... the future... and have felt that there is no point in hoping for a future with a family of my own. I would feel unbelievably selfish to inflict my state on people that I love... let alone hypothetical children. Even if I found a man to share my life with... he would be of sound mind and consent. Bringing in a child who had no say... feels selfish of me and abusive to them.