There is one person who is a friend who I met last summer- they are still my friend. Everyone else who actually a friend I've known for many years... I think after that person I met last summer my next newest friendship is like 7 years old.

I thought I had a good friend, who I could trust and count on and who I really cared for. It's complicated, but she basically told me to go to hell over her getting a new car. ...I was upset that she didn't bother to be too responsible about something that could totally screw me over [see: put her getting a new car over all the the other things in life- like bills and rent. Our rent.], and so now she hates me. Like, legitimately HAAATES me.

This is someone who said "i could never hate you, I love you too much for that too happen".

This is why I'm not looking for any more friends until further notice. The person i met last summer was just some kind of weird luck that was thrust upon me- but most of my relationships suffer at this point because I probably just give too much creedance to the idea that we should take care of each other.

So... I put a lot into a friendship, and then people just turn on me.
This is not a paranoia "everyone is out to get me" thing. This is more like.. no one cares. No one really cares about the people they say they do, no one holds to their word, very few people actually think they should take care of each other. People throw around the words "love" and "friend" SO carelessly.

It makes me horribly sad. So, no. My friendship card is full at this point, and that's kind of how I plan to keep it.

I get that feeling, absolutely.