Mind and body not aligning with each other? I know that feeling. Since I started Depacote in October, I have been that way. My mind keeps going, but my body won't. The medicine has me less manic, but I have no desire or ambition at all. Only way I can describe it is when at times through the years when I would self medicate for a while and then stop. I would feel like this for maybe a week or two.

I'm beginning to wonder if I should stay on this medicine. Not being as manic is probably a good thing, but I've got to get some ambition/motivation back. I've got to find employment somehow. My blood pressure the other day was 182/99. Mental clinic folks have been on me about it. They don't understand that I cannot afford to go to a doctor and get medicine for it. Nearest place for free service is 35 miles one way. If I walk there, maybe I won't need blood pressure medicine anymore as that would be some great cardio.