I tend to push people away even though they have never said get lost. I'm use to others walking away, rejection.. A job rejection hurts and I can handle that. Personal relationships are difficult. Recently I told someone that if he didn't want to communicate with me anymore please tell me. I would like to communicate but not sure if you feel the same? Yet this person has never indicated prior I don't want to communicate. He responded he sees no reason why I should feel hesitant, info i give to him is helpful, will always listen carefully.I felt awful for asking such a thing and told him I was experiencing a tough day, explained why (but never said i was afraid of him walking),yes I want to keep communicating. 3 days later no response, felt bad, said I'm sorry about the email. Nothing. I felt anxious because this guy has been respectful. We only communicate by email long distance. No romance, more aquaintance- professional.Never met. We don't communicate everyday, I do more of the emailing. He has a busy job. He knows my past. So 3 days ago I sent him info I knew he could use and left out anything to do with sorry etc.And he replied thanking me and explained some ideas he was involved in. I felt anxious feeling when a little over a week went by not knowing if things were kaput ( even though his response didnt appear to say so)I need to learn how to stop doing this. Just started therapy and hoping to learn.