im here. i kinda had a good day. visited my dad on his lunch break. visited my neighbors. no depression. had some voices that scared me though. and actually a lot of paranoia since there was a police driving on my tail on tha way home from visiting my dad. ON MY TAIL. of my car i mean. i thought maybe he was gonna stop me for a mental health warrant because i had a doctor tell me they were gonna put one out for me once but i think that was a threat since i had dropped out of their outpatient program when i wasnt doing well.

anyway. its been a good day so far. im hoping the voices subside and the paranoia subsides a bit. it helped to see my dad i love him so much i worry about him a lot.