Interesting thoughts about internalization (which I hadn't heard of before either). I've never thought about my therapist much between sessions - I guess my connection with her isn't of that sort. There seems to be a little bit of distance between us that I don't know how to describe - boundaries maybe? It's not that she isn't kind or supportive. Still I can't see leaving her for a while. I'm not ready yet. Now my psychiatrist on the other hand - I feel kind of needy about him - but there is a lot of transference going on in that relationship.