Things happen. Life goes on. And right now....I just feel so alone. Alone. Alone and lost.

I'm hurting and don't know what to do.
Memories, a horrible fear of rejection, and a whole lot of shame and embarrassment.
I scared to talk right now, because I don't want to weigh down other people with my problems. But they always tell me to talk when I need to. Aaahhhhh. I just don't know what to do. I need a hug. And I just really need to know that I'm not alone.
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Yes. Jesus is the reason I am still alive today.
Diagnoses:
MDD, BPD, PTSD, OCD, AN-BP
(I don't define myself by my personal alphabet up there, but I put it there so that maybe somebody won't feel so alone

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