Yumi:
I asked for help from a women's shelter a few years ago and was turned away. They said I had too many children (6) and they couldn't help because we would take up beds other women needed more. They told me to go live with family or friends. I have no biological family to speak of and no friends I can name for 10 years now. I thought you couldn't be turned away by a shelter, but I was informed in no uncertain terms that they could. They also said since I am college educated that I would be taking resources away from others that needed them. ANYWAY...Trying to get help from a shelter was a disaster and honestly, I'm still a bit bitter about it.
I already have a PTSD diagnosis due to unrelated childhood issues. When I say unrelated I mean the diagnosis came before this relationship, however, this relationship (I've been told by past T) apparently has a lot to do with unresolved childhood issues. It's complicated. Of course, I no longer see a T because according to my husband, the T was a waste of money and trying to turn me against him. It's been several years.

It sounds like you have been in a similar position. I'm really happy that you were able to get out. I do wish I could, but I'm pretty resigned to the fact that there will only be one way out for me.