This is hillarious to the point of irrationally mental now lol. After last weeks session which I took a big step and admitted my feelings and vulnerabilities and even spoke some CSa stuff,

A couple of days later after processing all of this, I guess it brought up more crap and nightmares and memories, well now all of a sudden I'm so angry at her that I'm having these pretend conversations with her in my head, where I'm telling her to get the f $&& out of my life.

That she is a stupid bi$@&ch and to stop pretending to like me.

OMG am I going nuts? Then I feel guilty. I keep replaying this in my head and I'm hoping this goes away before Wednesday ,

It does not make sense to me. I can really feel the anger as if she was really in front of me.

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