My mind can be a deep dark and scary place. No matter how far down I stuff those horrible things that one should have never seen but can't be unseen they always find a way seep through to the surface. Some people I loved came to a horrible demise and for that I am truly sorry. Miss you so very much J and hope to be able to see you again some day. All these secrets I keep just eat at me from the inside out but I have no choice. Have to keep the secrets or else I wouldn't be here anymore for them to torment me.