I think that's the whole problem. I don't feel a connection with anything I've done my entire life. Everything's just been a chore, the next challenge, the next thing that has to be done. I've never connected with any of them. My logic tells me that there must be something out there for me, but I don't even know where to start looking. I'd love to treat my depression, but I don't have the money for it. All I can get is the free psychologists they provide at my university.