I too am very glad you didnt go through with it

I can tell when the zeldox is starting to wear off... It lasts 12 hours for me, I start to feel weird if I go more than 12 hours between doses, even if the doses are different strengths (ie 40 morning 60 night). Are you on an AP or AD?

I've been mad at myself for failed sui too. Then frustrated with myself for even being in that state to start with! Then the guilt that comes with that... I can relate.