The emotions are back, leaving me feeling weak again. For the most part my life is sailing along beautifully again, now that they are gone. Still, it is like I am impotent and out of control which I really hate. To know you love someone so deeply, that the pain will never end. That they are incapable of giving you the love you so desperately crave and deserve is at best debilitating.

I know they will never return and it is what it is. Yet in my heart, on my most basic human level - my heart beats for only one. I will love you forever.