I think I was fairly young when I had sexual feelings, but can't nail down an age. I remember getting pretty hot an heavy with a boyfriend at 14, but we didn't have sex. I enjoyed fooling around a lot though. I was a virgin until I was 21. But then I busted out the gates with a vengeance. Now I definetly have some issues surrounding sex that I've been working on. I had it in my head that a guy wouldn't like me unless I slept with him. I had also decided that men needed sex all the time and I had better do it all the time to keep them happy. I've worked through a lot of that, and these days sex is much more enjoyable for me, because I only do it if I want to.
I can really take it or leave it though. Its been about a month and I don't miss it yet haha! I mostly miss being close to someone. I crave that. Just cuddling, watching a movie on the couch, holding hands. My last relationship was kinda strange, because he was an ex boyfriend and I told him we had to wait for sex. I had decided I needed time to date a guy before we hopped in the sack. So we waited about a month and a half, even though we had been intimate in the past. I really see now that I need that period to see, for myself, that the guy is in it for more than just sex, because my sexual feelings were incredibly jaded.
Getting back on topic....I think my parents explained sex to me fairly early, probably around 12? Because the kids at school were starting to talk and I was asking questions. I don't know how I ended up with such jaded ideas as a young adult.
Thanks for this thread!
~Rayna
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