Oh it definitely makes it worse. It makes you feel ashamed of being the way you are when you can't help it. Depression is a very serious disease and it needs treatment. I would encourage you to seek out treatment. I know it is really hard to do on your own. Is there anyone that can help with that. Like drive you to an appointment or something. That has really helped me in the past to have someone kind of hold my hand and bring me to an appointment.